NOthing

well im sure all of you already know this but lately ive been really really depressed!
it seems like nothing matters anymore, I wish I cared more about things but if got to the point of where i just dont care anymore which isnt good at all.
im past the point of crying no tears seem to come out, even if I feel like crying my eyes out.
im constantly sick to my stomach to the point of wanting to throw up every second of every day.
i know ive already told u guys this multiple times but GOD says that u need to pray continually. and i know this sounds bad to put prayer request on my blog but no one is perfect and sometimes i need some help and the best help u can give is pray that things will get better.
just seems to be more bad news after more bad news and on and on lol im such a debby downer but it sorta is true and litterally i dont know how much more i can take, i just get soo stressed about everything that sometimes i even forget to breath for few seconds, i know that sounds stupid but its true.
and my brain is just so full of things floating around that i cant stand it i wanna just sit down and cry but nothing comes out i just feel like i have such a horrible headache that is putting unbearable pressure on my head and theres nothing i can do to stop it. i know i know i sound ridiculous i have no reason to be soo stressed or depressed but for some reason i am and i am just one of those types of kids that get really upset but i dont show it much. and i just let everything build up till i feel like imma die from soo much pressure.
so in a way this blog is my diary or journal to sorta let my feelings out because i need a little bit of relief.
and yes the one thing i think about above all these crazy things going on in my head is GOD and how above all these things he has kept me alive and he has opened my eyes to the true meaning of life!
and i try through all this to glorify him in every way. I trust him that everything is going on for a reason but i wish i could just stop acting depressed and stressed about all this  but I just cant help it i have always been a stressful and depressed person but now everything is stacking on top of each other and it becomes to much at a certain point. anyway enough of me feeling sorry for myself lol tonight at church was good i loved the sermon it was really encouraging and also afterwards. i am soo proud that i have such godly friends they are so encouraging!

Alex:P

-sigh- half and half

well yesterday i woke up and was told that ruth was spending the night at the suttons and then i found out i was going too! i was soo excited i was gonna be able to get out of the house and relieve a little bit of stress, and to be honest (and i know this sounds bad) but i dont think i thought much about everything that was going on(which is good because i really needed a brake from all that stuff because it was making me really sick and depressed!
anyway it was super fun im glad i got to go and be with my bestest friends micah and kennedy and jasmine and tre haha it was alot of fun!

and above the rest that i hate you! lol good times

after coop (ahem i mean first hour) we only stayed for first hour because the suttons had to be home to make sure a bed was delivered to there house which i was happy to leave because the rest of the classes i dont like except P.E but i really wasnt in the mood for P.E i probably would have got in trouble because i was in a I dont care if i do anything wrong mood because ( i was at the suttons all day and therefor that means going outside and screaming and pulling trees out of the ground and being crazy haha)I'm jk I would care if I did something wrong I was just in a crazy mood so I probably would have got me and my friend in trouble for being way to crazy!

ANYWAY!! after coop i went to joels and we went to watch mission impossible i loved that movie!
it litterally made me sweat and made me actually grab my jacket and i was like half covering my face with it like covering my mouth saying "oh no there is no way!!!!" and "iwould be crying my eyes out if I had to do that" for a full scene lol i got into that movie alot!

alright i better go. Also before i do go please pray for my grandpa and the last thing i heard was that he can breath on his own and he can open his eyes.

Psalm 41:3
The LORD sustains them on their sickbed and restores them from their bed of illness.




If it is Gods will he will heal my grandpa and he can also save him, it is only because of Jesus that we can be saved. so praise the lord that he sent his son, im so thankful, and there is nothing i can do to repay him but the least i can do is live my whole life glorifying and worshiping him!


Alex:P

Piling up

everything just seems to pile up i was sooo nervous the other day that i almost threw up i got horrible news yesterday and then i also heard that my grandpa is probably not gonna make it and if he does then he will not ever be the same and he wont remember anyone! and just when i thought it couldnt get worse!
well i drew a pic for TJ because his birthday would have been saturday the 28th the same day as daniels
and so i drew the pic and i brought it down to show everyone and then out of nowhere i just burst into tears and i was embarrassed because i never cry in front of my family. im soo shocked right now and so stressed
that im sooo sick  and i am shaking like crazy almost vibrating, grrr right when stuff started going good everything takes a turn for the worst its the same patern in my life one amazing thing happens then not to long later its gone. ok so i used to live on a farm and i was all by myself up there for three years no friends and i finally moved to the house im in now and  no one liked me in fact  they all hated me except for one person TJ, and then that was over very soon, then shortly after i had tons of great friends at church and then the suttons came to church and i had even more great friends! and then my aunt died, and now my grandpa and everything else, i just dont get it why does this happen to me so much!



Alex:P

NEW blog news

well I've decided I am not going to do any more contests or weekly viewer or any of it for awhile its just not working anyway not to good of a day i always hate the feeling when like i buy a video game that i have been waiting for for like 2 months to come out and i finally get it and it ends up not working! that happens to me a lot not fun lol like last night me and dad wanted to play a game together on the computer, and the game had been working before, and out of nowhere, when me and dad wanted to play, it stopped so that wasn't good! and i think im giving up on drawing at least for awhile idk i just dont feel like drawing im always disappointed in the way it turns out and i just am gonna give up for awhile maybe in a few weeks ill feel like drawing again.  i just dont have very many feelings anymore ever since TJ not much sad or happy or really much of anything just sorta moving along -sigh- some days are better then others so hopefully tomorrow will be good because Kelly's coming over that will be fun!
and cant wait for the sermon a really good sermon would cheer me up. lol hopefully i dont get sick by tomorrow because i feel sick today, and i wanna go grrr! anyway enough boringness about me im gonna go now thanks for reading my rambling on about nothing and hopefully i will keep posting because i think i might delete my blog because i never have any good ides for posts anymore just sorta well nothing to post today, or well today wasn't much fun, stuff like that! so ya imma go now i might lay in bed and watch a movie or something grrr nothing sounds fun to me today but i want to do something because its Saturday  i got no school!



Alex:P

well today wasnt fun

ive been doing school and cleaning most of the day at least its the weekend now
im going to talk to lewis today awkward!
and well im pretty happy because i was missing talking to my friends and now i have kennedy online to talk to yay! now i dont have to be bored!
gonna play some wow with my dad tonight  that will be fun!
not really much to post about except im starving!

YOUTH AND MEAN!

LOL well youth was fun te message was really good too
and it was fun to talk to friends

i feel bad for pretending and joking being mean so i have to apologize even though i am joking lol i just feel bad to say mean things to such a nice person lol im sry kenendy hehe but at least she jokes right back doesnt make me feel so bad hehe

and i just noticed but its impossible to have a staring contest with kennedy lol she's got like huge pupils
she has puppy dog eyes so its hard to do that without laughing lol

and it was funny when sarah came down and was like whats going on and daniel and sean were like making up funny things haha good times i always have good stories to tell whenever i hang out with my friends
Lol I also thought of something cool I came up with this, no one else, ok.

Music is like a key to your brain each song unlocks memories


Like whenever I listen to certain songs I always remember something while listening, I just think if I don't listen to music for a long time and then like 3 years later come back and listen to a song it will bring back memories, just a thought


Alex:P

LIVE CHAT NOW!

well guess what i got Meebo working on my blog yay its awesome if you dont know what that is its a live chating program so yes that means if we are both online at one time we can chat awesome right!


alright all you need to do is like 4-5 easy steps to get started

#1. go to www.meebo.com
and register your account. once you are done doing that, and your at the home page, exit that window.

#2. go to www.meebo.com/messenger
then once your there it should look like this

you will login with the info you registered.

#3. the next screen will look like this

then you want to click on the add buddy thingy

once you clicked that if you want to add me type dromulio in the bar and click add buddy

#4. and once thats done all you have to do now is come onto my blog and you will be registered and i will be your friend so whenever im on you can IM me so ya comment below if you had any problems

and i know the pics are fuzzy i did that for copyright reasons

Alex:P

Tuesday

well today was fun im glad i dont have a part in the play thats a relief -few-
anyway i love hanging out with friends kicking and shoving and saying mean things and flicking and pinching lol (sounds sooo much fun right lol all you people who aren't suttons probably wouldn't enjoy that but i do) and the games were fun and food was good and ya it was just good day the only part i hated was when we had to leave grrr i hate that moment when you get all sad because its time to go and the rest of the night all you can think of is how much fun you had and now its over lol
Also i figured out the most comments ive had on one post and most views alright here it is most comments is 29 most views is 590

Alex:P

FUN MONDAY

Well today was really really fun I went to my bestest friends and brought them to a park and we had stick i mean sword battles we went on alot of walks, we had a glass fight, we looked at an illegal pond, and tthere was a tree with graffiti all over it SSK, anyway it was alot of fun. i smiled the whole ride home lol but now im gonna miss them till tommorow. I hope it will be fun tommorow! LOL i have a funny story well sorta its sorta boring. anyway,
i went into the gas station to buy some coke for my mom and she only gave me $2 and the pop ended up being $2.50 so i looked at the lady with a worried face and then i smiled and she was like dont worry about it sweetie ill pay the rest, and i was like( in a innocent voice) well thank you! and she said your welcome hun have a nice day.
haha i told mom and im like i guess im just a likable person haha im joking by the way im a boring and dumb person jk again!
WALK FAST NOT SLOW hehe please!
now i gotta change because im all itchy and gross lol im getting in my PJ'S and dont ask me what they look like because im to lazy to get a pick lol
OH and kennedy hope u dont think im being mean im just joking i mean we both joke so i figured u know im joking but my mom wants to make sure its not bugging you because if it is i will stop becaus ei dont wanna upset you

Alex:P SHOVE!

Sorry for no posts

sry for not posting i was sick and needed some rest,
 anyway im back and i will be attending church tonight unless something weird happens so im happy bout that!
anywho i HAVE BEEN LISTENING to alot of something corporate the last few days they are really good andrew mcmahon is a really good singer even at his younger age of 21 when he started singing and even now idk how old he is today, oh also i found a really good version of dark blue its live and its really good

Alex:P

Ideas

ok well i need ideas for my other blog such as what i sould post more about or things like that and pretty soon im making a big big contest but idk what the prize should be so pla leave commet below on some ideas ty


Alex;P

Sniff

well today nothing really to good to post so hmmm.
im sorta in the drawing mood but idk what to draw darn
i might play some LBP. idk small post but theres nothing to post im not in the typing mood i guess sry.

Alex:P

Super sick

well i woke up this morning (duh!) and i felt like i was suffocating  so i was running around looking for the inhaler and then mom came up to me and asked what i was doing, so i tried to ask her were the inhaler was but i couldn't talk i lost my voice so i was panicing, but i finally found it. Then later ashley needed my help moving things in the basement so i helped and shortly after i thought for sure i was gonna die i couldnt breath and i felt really light headed. but it was just a mixture of my throat being soar and asthma but im ok now except for the fact that i constantly feel like im having an asthma attack. so ya not fun day! im also super depressed because i was soo happy after a super long boring depressing christmas break i was gonna be able to see my friends but nope!
and i feel like throwing up blegh!
but one thing of good news i got the game Little Big Planet it was on sale for like $18 so that was cool its a really fun game!

Alex:P

Sick

im sick not fun. but some good news i got like an inch taller and still growing rapidly the last few days yay!
Ok so i have one more subject of school to do today, today was sorta short yay!
Im really upset I havent been able to see most of my friends for a long time, ive mostly been cooped up in my room every since christmas break. except i got a few times of going out like church but i havent seen my friends like i normally would throughout the week so that stinks anyway i gtg ill maybe post later


Alex:P

GRRRR NO CHURCH

im not going im soo dissapointed and depressed now grrr that ruined my whole good mood and my happy week grrr!


Alex >8O

Joels

well i just got home from joel andrew and seans house. it was super fun we always laugh soo much about random things hehe. oh and i went to that thing about moremans sry dont know how to spell it
and was really good i really enjoyed it!
anyway im excited for tonight to see my friends yay and today im in a good mood happy:D



Alex:P

New Blog!

Ok so i have for the past two days been working on this second blog of mine.
but before u start thinking im quitting this one your wrong.
i am only making this one for fun reason go check it out it will explain everything.
ok so now i have that blog for all fun interactive posts and stuff this one will be just the same just less contests and quizes more like funny stories, whats going on in my life, bible verses,
just basic stuff ive been posting bout anyway and i will have drawing pics still but there will be tons more on the other blog


heres the blog adress u can follow if u want but if u do u have to promise u will interact ith the blog not just read its not a reading blog more for fun stuff

http://nogegg-alex.blogspot.com/


alright so ya please check out my last two posts down there ☟ there are some random fun stuff in there too so ya.


and so u know the blog is still under development so that means i got lots more to add it might be finished in next week or 2 because of school and bible reading and stuff.



Alex:P

i litterally dont have anything to post

well nothing today to post at all grrrrrrrrrrr idk what to say uum hmm imma post a contest maybe tell me if its a good idea ok.
and um imma post some lyrics.
and imma post 3 secrets bout me i guess
and imma post what imma do in future
ok im doing this cause im bored ok first is lyrics


"Swim"

You've gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
A crack in the armor
I swim to brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
Through nights that won't end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers and friends
Yeah you've gotta swim
Through wars without cause
Swim for the lost politicians
Who don't see their greed as a flaw

The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim for brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
Well I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's no shame in drifting
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark
Yeah you've gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just find the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think
The currents will drag us away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim, swim
Just keep your head above
Swim

"The Resolution"

There's a lot that I don't know
There's a lot that I'm still learning
When I think I'm letting go
I find my body it's still burning

And you hold me down
And you got me living in the past
Come on and pick me up
Somebody clear the wreckage from the blast

[Chorus:]
Yeah I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I've survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need light
I need light in the dark
As I search for the resolution

And the bars are finally closed
So I try living in the moment
For the moment it just froze
And I felt sick and so alone

I could hear the sound
Of your voice still ringing in my ear
I'm going underground
But you'll find me anywhere I fear

[Chorus]

The resolution
The resolution

And you hold me down
Yeah you hold me down

Yeah I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I've survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness

[Chorus]

I need life
I need life
(Lying in the dark as I search for the resolution)
Resolution
(Lying in the dark as I search for the resolution)
Resolution
(Lying in the dark as I search for the resolution)

and i though this one was funny and sweet and this is sung by a friend of adam young

I know I struggle to find
The way to speak my mind
In twenty five words or less
I never have that success

'Cause sometimes I want to say
All the things that I'm thinking about you baby
It's never seemed to work before
I guess I'll try it just once more

So here I go

You're cute, you're sweet, you're soft, you're smart
You fill the gaps inside my heart 
You're nice to hold and hard to leave
You're everything that's good to me

I love your hair, your pretty eyes
The way you leave me mesmerised
I guess there's just one thing that's true
Above the rest - that I love you

I'm sorry if I make no sense
The art of succinct compliments
Has never been a skill of mine
But I'll just do it one more time

So here I go

You're cute, you're sweet, you're soft, you're smart
You fill the gaps inside my heart 
You're nice to hold and hard to leave
You're everything that's good to me

I love your hair, your pretty eyes
The way you leave me mesmerised
I guess there's just one thing that's true
Above the rest - that I love you

'Cause all I really have to do
Is tell you how much I love you 

ok three secrets hmmm

1 i still have my baby blanket form when i was 1 or i think 0 lol

2 if i say nothings wrong and i seem upset i really am

3 ive never lied my whole life lol jk

but my serious 3rd awnser is i cry every day but most of the time im around ppl and i can hide it really well

ok what imma do in the future or more basically my top 5 goals i want in next 20 years if i live that long

1. i want to get married and have a big fam and atleast one dog and cat

2. i want to have a job that pays really well so i can have enough money to pay for my fam lol and i want my job to be a computer fixer and stuff like that

3. i want a car so i can drive my friends places and do fun things

4. i want to learn everything there is in bible to learn i know impossible

5. i want to become really good at drawing

ok now since im bored imma post few more random things long random post yay!

ok if u had to choose this is a quiz sorta ok 3 questions for fun u dont have to tell awnser if u dont wanna just for fun

1.would u rather eat a banana peal or orange peal?

2. would u rather chug a whole can of coke till u couldnt stand the burn or get tazzed for 2 secs?

3. would u rather break a finger or toe?

ok enough with boring random stuff i want one of u viewers out there to decide what im posting next and whatever u pick i promise i will post it ok so i will not post till someone says what i post next kk

Alex:P

ok well music

well i figured out the whole playlist thing it was easy and now i got some good music on my blog yay i recommend rescued swim vanilla twilight
and i got a letter from kelly in the mail today it was funny haha and cool anyway not much today just boring oh ya ashleys an adult now. man it is hard to think soon she will have a bf and bring him home to dinner and stuff wow and then she will be married and have kids could be in the next 4 yrs lol


Alex:P

ugh -sigh-

well its been boring and lonely at home still. im not excited for school to start thats gonna stink
anyway i drew something today its pretty cool

thats gold not light yellow even though it looks like it. and im really bored so if u want a pic done for u just say so and ill draw it im in the drawing mood but idk what to draw and i wanna give pics away so ya
ive been listening to some really good jacks mannequin its really really good i love that band i cant choose between owl city or jacks mannequin s my fav so there both my fav lol


Swim, Crashin, If My Heart Was a House, Rescued, Im Ready, Vanilla Twilight,

oh and i wanted u to see why i like jacks mannequin and sad songs soo much i really respect this band

Alex:P

my heart is scratched

lol my heart ist broken its scratched and it cannot be crushed apparently  haha.
and now i have coo dies because kennedy bumped against me ewwww gross
haha lol


Alex:P