well im sure all of you already know this but lately ive been really really depressed!
it seems like nothing matters anymore, I wish I cared more about things but if got to the point of where i just dont care anymore which isnt good at all.
im past the point of crying no tears seem to come out, even if I feel like crying my eyes out.
im constantly sick to my stomach to the point of wanting to throw up every second of every day.
i know ive already told u guys this multiple times but GOD says that u need to pray continually. and i know this sounds bad to put prayer request on my blog but no one is perfect and sometimes i need some help and the best help u can give is pray that things will get better.
just seems to be more bad news after more bad news and on and on lol im such a debby downer but it sorta is true and litterally i dont know how much more i can take, i just get soo stressed about everything that sometimes i even forget to breath for few seconds, i know that sounds stupid but its true.
and my brain is just so full of things floating around that i cant stand it i wanna just sit down and cry but nothing comes out i just feel like i have such a horrible headache that is putting unbearable pressure on my head and theres nothing i can do to stop it. i know i know i sound ridiculous i have no reason to be soo stressed or depressed but for some reason i am and i am just one of those types of kids that get really upset but i dont show it much. and i just let everything build up till i feel like imma die from soo much pressure.
so in a way this blog is my diary or journal to sorta let my feelings out because i need a little bit of relief.
and yes the one thing i think about above all these crazy things going on in my head is GOD and how above all these things he has kept me alive and he has opened my eyes to the true meaning of life!
and i try through all this to glorify him in every way. I trust him that everything is going on for a reason but i wish i could just stop acting depressed and stressed about all this but I just cant help it i have always been a stressful and depressed person but now everything is stacking on top of each other and it becomes to much at a certain point. anyway enough of me feeling sorry for myself lol tonight at church was good i loved the sermon it was really encouraging and also afterwards. i am soo proud that i have such godly friends they are so encouraging!
Alex:P
it seems like nothing matters anymore, I wish I cared more about things but if got to the point of where i just dont care anymore which isnt good at all.
im past the point of crying no tears seem to come out, even if I feel like crying my eyes out.
im constantly sick to my stomach to the point of wanting to throw up every second of every day.
i know ive already told u guys this multiple times but GOD says that u need to pray continually. and i know this sounds bad to put prayer request on my blog but no one is perfect and sometimes i need some help and the best help u can give is pray that things will get better.
just seems to be more bad news after more bad news and on and on lol im such a debby downer but it sorta is true and litterally i dont know how much more i can take, i just get soo stressed about everything that sometimes i even forget to breath for few seconds, i know that sounds stupid but its true.
and my brain is just so full of things floating around that i cant stand it i wanna just sit down and cry but nothing comes out i just feel like i have such a horrible headache that is putting unbearable pressure on my head and theres nothing i can do to stop it. i know i know i sound ridiculous i have no reason to be soo stressed or depressed but for some reason i am and i am just one of those types of kids that get really upset but i dont show it much. and i just let everything build up till i feel like imma die from soo much pressure.
so in a way this blog is my diary or journal to sorta let my feelings out because i need a little bit of relief.
and yes the one thing i think about above all these crazy things going on in my head is GOD and how above all these things he has kept me alive and he has opened my eyes to the true meaning of life!
and i try through all this to glorify him in every way. I trust him that everything is going on for a reason but i wish i could just stop acting depressed and stressed about all this but I just cant help it i have always been a stressful and depressed person but now everything is stacking on top of each other and it becomes to much at a certain point. anyway enough of me feeling sorry for myself lol tonight at church was good i loved the sermon it was really encouraging and also afterwards. i am soo proud that i have such godly friends they are so encouraging!
Alex:P
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